My life changed in youth

Your presence gave me worth,

when we were fresh

As I aged

Would I see

You’ve changed me.

Do I regret

No, you gave your all

With set limits.

I see time draw near,

You

Alone,

You’ll change,

I think not.

On to prove,

What I see,

Your insolence blocks

The sun.

Careful destruction

Of minor troops.

With righteousness,

You play to win.

Mind yourself,

The dragon is out.

Slay the ones

Not of thee.


You’re at a New Year’s Party. It’s in full swing. The countdown begins. “HAPPY NEW YEAR”. Hugs and kisses all around. Then the dreaded, “So, what’s your resolution?” You’re full of joy, it’s another new year. Your turn to speak, “I’m going to ________” Insert any goal to finish that sentence.

Next year the same thing. Don’t beat yourself up because it hasn’t worked out.

Here’s the thing, we’ve all been there. Does anyone ever keep them? Does anyone care?

Deep down you’d love to be in the same spot next year, 25 lbs lighter, no longer a smoker, and…


I am not the bravest person in the world.

When I watch a horror movie, I jump at the slightest sound. I get shivers up my spine. I break out in a cold sweat. I cover my eyes with my hands and I stuff my thumbs in my ears to block out any sound. Even Jurassic Park gives me nightmares.

When I’m out of my comfort zone, I get the same reaction. It doesn’t matter what I do. A road trip, a canoe trip or a flight on a plane. I get nervous and worry that dire consequences will occur when I venture out of where it’s safest.

This…


My Soul Food

Delicious food feeds my soul. It inspires me to want to bake. I want to eat all those delectable treats.

I love desserts although there is one particular item that ranks at the top.

Chocolate

I love chocolate more than any other food. It is a separate food group in my opinion.

I can eat it every day, anytime.


This is to address Chrissy Teigen on the loss of her loving son, Jack.

My dearest Chrissy:

I have been in your shoes, I too lost a child at a very young age. Karalin was 2 days old when we had to take her off of life support.

There is absolutely no way to ever prepare for the loss. It’s completely devastating and unless you go through it you can’t possibly understand.

I will start from my experiences and maybe that will help you with your experiences. I wish you all the very best.

When you tweeted about leaving the…


Scammed out of $9000 and we felt grateful

An old building waiting to be torn down
An old building waiting to be torn down

What happens when you get scammed? When you realize it, you feel ashamed. You shouldn’t though. Why not? These people are different from you and me.

They’re smooth. When you question them, they play a passive-aggressive game. It makes you doubt yourself.

I’m here to say, if you begin to feel that way, run in the opposite direction. Who cares if you hurt their feelings. This is about your hard-earned money. The onus should be on the contractor to make the job as pain-free as possible.

My story

You’ve decided on a project. Doesn’t matter if it’s big or small. You want…


Spectacular incremental linear movements in time

A colourful nebula in outer space.
A colourful nebula in outer space.

Days propelled forward. Blend into the next. Closed in finality. Dispersed in memory.

How many do we squander? As each dawn recalls the birth of ideals. A renewal of opportunity on order.

By midday, tiredness penetrates bones. The hunter’s quarry of warming rays. Despite the coldness of self.

This mysterious life unwinds. Ticks away each tock. Shallow winds filter leaves.

Too wrapt in study to ponder intricacies of measured habits. Rote of nature. Day by day. Year in, year out.


You want to be a successful writer

Twins in eastern attire taking a photo
Twins in eastern attire taking a photo

We all have something to offer the world. I see your work every day. Why? To answer the call from within.

You squeak out one more word. Come on, make those sentences sing. Engage your readers with that last bead of sweat. You can do it.

My question to you is, why don’t you? What’s the secret sauce? It seems everyone but you can hit the right notes. Where’s the missing part?

Well sit right back and read on. Yes, there’s a secret recipe. Now you know. It’s not what you think though.

Write from that little spark that’s you

You’ve churned out words, like the top…


Do thoughts like these rush over you

A poem

Athabascan glacier in the Columbian Icefields two people walking on it
Athabascan glacier in the Columbian Icefields two people walking on it

Which incite a mysterious world of ice
Moments frozen
Half a million years ago
Mountain peaks poke through
A barren sphere

Fire rages beneath winter white
Overcome by violent eruptions
Atmosphere filled with toxic fumes
An ever repeated cycle
Warmth heats all to liquid once more

Fuel inspires the growth of land
One ocean dwindles
Another one increases
The synchronization of balance
Beats forever in time

East sun up and west sun down
Chased by the moon
A planet spins on its axis
Seasons change as it tilts lower
Dry out the north then south

Magnetic poles shift
Full stop
Reversals…


Walt Disney was ahead of his time.

Magical Kingdom castle in Disney World Florida
Magical Kingdom castle in Disney World Florida

In the swamps of Florida sits the massive park of Disney World. Walt Disney’s vision of a children's wonderland of fantasy and joy. In 2018, a staggering 58 million visitors enjoyed the park. A place where kids are kids, and they dream to be there.

When Disney set out to build his park, he wanted his visitors to have a magical experience. His world included freedom from biting bugs. Situated smack dab in the middle of Florida’s swampland, it’d be hard to imagine.

Let’s face it, who wants bug bites? I have adverse reactions to mosquitoes. …

Elle How

canadian visual artist, canoeist, blogger, mom, exploring the outdoors, soul searcher

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